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Stop, Pause.

We all learn to stop and stare, even once in a while. It’s innate for us to slow down and even cease to a complete stop in times of confusion and incontinence. In this process, we work the hours searching for the answers to baffling questions, debating with ourselves the true value of things around us, and finding the true soul inside the body that we call ours. 

At the end

This world will fade away

Intelligence and money will rust

Beauty and physique will be gone

The only thing left are your friends

Only your family will be there

What will their testimony be

Will they say you have been faithful

Or will they claim not knowing you

Ask yourself if you have been humble

If you have been willing to help

Or if you have aimed only to succeed

And forgot your brothers and sisters

Only looking at your future

Neglecting the family you have in Christ

Because if that is the case

You have been living life wrong

Wrong, yes, terribly wrong

You Inspire Me

You inspire me

To be myself again

To laugh as hard as I can

To cry if I want to

To be happy

You inspire me

To look for beauty

To appreciate smiles

To listen carefully

To stare at the sky

You inspire me

To believe in wishes

To smile notwithstanding pain

To move forward

To dream of happiness

You inspire me

To love God

To love myself

To love you

To love

You inspire me//

Deep

Beyond the little rivers I have touched
Away from the misery I call my element
I seek ye still, my true self, my ego

Taken away

Just cry away

Just cry away, my dear
You don't have to look away

Just cry away, no fear

I know it sounds cliche

Just cry away, every tear

Don't let your heart go gray

I've been where you are before

And I cried, too, but not anymore

Of Love

        When young men and women hear the word love, they immediately think of its connotations: puppy love, adolescent relationships, courtship and all that things synonymous to the previous statements. But, love, if perseveringly nurtured and watered with time and communication, will bloom into a garden that exudes all the most beautiful fragrances in the world, filled with flowers of different colors and kinds. Here goes some poems and quotes that speak about sincere love, uncorrupted by worldliness and selfish desires:

Mad about the boy,
It's pretty funny but I'm mad about the boy
He has a gay appeal
that makes me feel
There may be something sad about the boy.

-Noel Coward, British dramatist, actor, and songwriter.

        Sometimes, women take on their motherly instincts and become compelled to comfort and take care of someone they barely know. That because there might be something sad about the boy, they think they are capable of satisfying the needs of the person, and ultimately making them happy. They lose themselves in the delusion that someone needs them, and later hurt themselves when the person they want to take care of declares they don’t need or don’t want any affection at all. It’s sad, but fairly realistic. :’)

JULIET Give me my Romeo: and, when he shall die,
Take him and cut him out in little stars,
And he will make the face of heaven so fine
That all the world will be in love with night,
And pay no worship to the garish sun.

William Shakespeare, English poet and playwright.

        Beautifully said, Shakespeare! :) Sometimes, we just can’t find enough adjectives or form the perfect sentence to correctly and adequately express the very emotions bursting from within our hearts. Shakespeare must have been in love so many times or else, he’d just be a very moody and emotional writer. :)

She looked at him, as one who awakes:
The past was a sleep, and her life began.

Robert Browning, British poet.

        When we love, we leave everything else behind and we look forward to a future of uncertainty. We take each step forward with the person we love, notwithstanding the possibility that one moment things may fall apart, the person may find another lover and walk away, or God blows a great wind of change into our lives and things turn the other way around. There is no certitude when we are in love, just the face of our beloved filling our imaginations and a heart filled with hope and faith. :)

               

PS. I’m not in love, but why am I thinking or writing these? And who are viewing my blog? O.o
The last time I checked it was I had 200++ views and now it's doubled. HAHA. Leave some comments or something naman, mga viewers. Thank you. :)

Excited :)

Going to see the people I really love really soon. <3
 I hope they miss me as much as I miss them. :D

Plus, vacation's just around the corner!
REST, see you soon. :)

That guy

When I find that guy
"na mababara ako sa maraming bagay,
paiiyakin ako,
at kagagalitan ko nang sobra..
tatakbuhan ko..

...pero hahabulin ako,
hahalikan ako sa nuo,
yayakapin ako,
at sabay bubulong:
Oh. Sorry na.
Bati na tayo, okay lang yan.
Mahal na mahal naman kita...

...kahit anong mangyari."

Siya na. <3 hahaha.
Inspired lang po. :))

Mommy Wendi,

thank you for everything.

I love you, too! :))

Lumilipas na naman ang oras

Hindi ko alam kung dapat bang ikalungkot ang paglipas ng oras. Hindi ba't ibig sabihin nito'y makakamit mo na ang mga pinakahihintay mo? Magbabago na ang lahat ng nasa paligid mo. Mawawala na ang mga prinoproblema mo ngayon. Magiging masaya ka na. Pero sa paglipas rin ng oras, napapalayo ka sa mga bagay, lugar, at taong minahal mo.

Sana, manitili ang mga kaibigan ko kait sa paglipas ng oras.
Wala lang. :)

Simplicity is Beauty.

Friends :D

Friends. May totoong friends ka ba? Depende yan. May iba’t-ibang klase naman kasi ng kaibigan at may iba’t-ibang klase rin ng tao. Some people cannot be of help to you when it comes to certain circumstances kasi hindi nga talaga nila gawain ‘yun.

May mga bagay na hindi kayang gawin ng isang tao para sa’yo pero when it comes to other things they can be very helpful naman. Some are not there to listen, they are friends in order to criticize you. Some friends value your time with them; others are contented seeing you once in a while, but you’re still in their hearts.

Some people want to have you all of the time and others are happy to see spending time with others as long as you’re happy with what you’re doing. Some friends give you little gifts that brighten up your day. Some friends need you. Some friends call you all the time for help. Some friends love to eat with you. Others enjoy shopping and visiting places with you.

Some friends are silent. Some friends are one heck of a noise. Some are decent and noble. Others are plain crazy. I’m just so thankful I have the kind of friends I have right now. No matter how difficult they are to me, they’re there for a purpose and I can’t handle losing anyone of them.

Hey, friends, wag kayong mawawala, ha? BAWAL IWANAN. >:D<

Delete Post.

Words. Some I just have to keep away. Some I have to unshare, if there's even such a word. :P
Deleting some posts. NOW. :D Start over ulit.

Thanks.

At dahil sabi ni Mommy Wendi, eto na. <3

1.)  HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME! Haha. As I look back at the past year, I can’t help but laugh at the moments I made myself cry. I also can’t stop the tears from rolling down my cheek as I look back at the days of happiness God has given. There is just so much to be thankful for. There is so much to be happy about. There are so many things that simply make me happy that I’m still alive and able to see the world. To everyone who has been a part of my life for the past 16 years, whether it was a tragic or a beautiful experience having you, thank you for the change you brought to my life. Thank you for the love and the care. Thank you for being there. Thank you, from the bottom of my soul.

Siyempre, I have to thank God for my inspiration—my family. Haha. Sa family ako kumukuha ng lakas at ng rason para ngumiti. Sometimes, when things get too hectic at school, just a memory of them puts a smile on my face. Thank you, Mama and little brother. :')

To my siblinghood, Ate Wendi, Ate Reyna, Kuya Arden and Mara Liza. Thank you for the encouragement, the advice, and the love. Kahit hindi pa tayo nagkakasama nang kumpleto, I can feel na buo pa rin tayo. Love you, mga kapatid!

To my dear family and relatives, thanks for being part of my life. You're all greatly appreciated. :)

TO MY BELOVED BATCHMATES, muwah! :)) I love you, guys. Never will I find people like you again. Thank you for the stubbornness, the craziness, and the problems you’ve brought to my life. Kahit mga baliw kayo, salamat. :)

To all my good Pisay friends, you've permanently changed me. Thank you for the knowledge, the friendships, the gifts of laughter, the appreciation, and the presence. Thank you for all the things I had to undergo because of you; these things altered me into the girl I am now. To all the Pisayers I've met: Thank you! :)

To my friends outside Pisay: Rhonna Cristelle, Charlene Mae, Gooseans, Seminarians, common friends, and everyone else. Thank you for the lessons, the laughter, and the fun we shared. I hope God blesses your lives as much as He has blessed me with you. You have put a great deal of happiness in my once plain life. Thank you. :))

Mga best friends! I must see you again soon! >:)<

And to God, who continually loves me for who I am and all that I am, thank you so, so much for all the blessings and the love. :)

2.)  Another thing to be thankful for. Research! Yes, it’s finally over. We finally have the ticket to graduate in our hands. No more worries. No more anxieties of rushing papers and accomplishing tasks on due dates. It’s both a sad memory and a happy feeling inside me when I think of Research. Sa wakas, tapos na ang problema. Wala nang kailangan pang alalahanin. Pwede na akong grumaduate. Iyan lang ang masasabi ko tungkol sa research. There are things to edit pa, pero okay na ‘yun. Basta, tapos na. Thank you, God, for the big help. :)

3.)  Being a Bible-reader and Bible-lover. I’ve only recently started enjoying time with my Bible. I tell you, it’s such a beautiful feeling to be learning things that will benefit you not only in your earthly life but also in eternity as well. I’ve learned to fear God more, to praise God more, and to love God completely. I know I still have my imperfections, but to know Jesus and the Father is a beautiful feeling. I advise anyone who is in any sad situation to turn to the Bible. ALL the answers are there; it is all written. 

Again, thanks, people. Love you! :)

Your favorite Bible verse?

Your favorite Bible verse?

Answer here

Apropos Anger

Actually, homework ko 'to sa english. Gusto ko lang i-share. :)

Anger is absent when love is bounty; thus, anger is present when love is scarce. We fill ourselves with anger when we have lost reasons to love. We are angered when people hurt us, because we love ourselves too much that we would not let other people cause us so much as a scar.
So what happens to those who are love-departed? To those who cannot perceive tough love and are blinded by indignation towards others? To the angry?
The response is “they suffer.” They curse others, they shout, they blame the innocent. But, what happens to them after they have released the negativity? Nothing. They are still empty, unloved, bitter, and blind.
Anger does not solve anything. It does not cure the crippled, nor treat the trauma. It does not remedy the misery of losing something or the sadness of separation. It only adds to the problem being faced. If you are having troubles with someone, anger is not the solution. It will not take away the stress that only communication can repair. It does not make you move forward; there is no improvement in a life of anguish.
If you are angered, you are worse than the cancer-afflicted because even with your limbs that function, you are not able to help anyone, not even yourself. People must pity you for even the beggar has something to smile about, but you, who are more fortunate, are angered. If you are angry, you are not productive.
You are not able to finish tasks on time. Your responsibilities are not properly and enthusiastically accomplished. The maximum capacity you should be able to fulfil is not achieved.
Anger stirs up hatred between you and the people involved. The ambiance becomes unpleasant and if it worsens it will be unbearable. Anger adds confusion and aloofness to a place that should be abounding in interaction and good welfare. If anger gets out of hand, it affects you and your enemy in ways larger than the cause itself.
If only people are able to withstand the anger and to let the issue fall. Then, we would all be able to live in peace. People will make better choices if they are not controlled by anger. Friends can stay friends until they pass away. Family would never fall apart and divorce would never have been devised. Lovers will never fade away. People will never leave, and others would still be alive if anger was controlled by people.
God would be more delighted in us if we were not so conceited and angry with the people around us. He would be so much happier. He would be truly proud, if only we were not fuming all the time.
A burst of anger is inevitable with all the pressures we are facing, but to let it control your life and your relationships is foolish and unexpected of the wise. People must start smiling and letting anger pass. Let love fill us instead. Let our eyes be opened and anger be put away into oblivion.

Letters to Juliet

"..the truth is.. I am madly, deeply, truly, passionately in love with you.." --Charlie, Letters To Juliet <3


LOVE STORIES. It’s been a while since I watched movies about true love. And now, I watched Letters to Juliet. A real wow. I still wonder why and how women believe in true love. Why do they seek such things they aren’t sure even exists?


Sometimes, it can just be truly painful to wait around and see couples enjoying their love for each other while you watch in the background and wonder, "wherefore art thou, Romeo?"


I don’t think I’ve experienced such kind of love as in the movie, but maybe one day I will. I hope. I’d want to meet my Romeo, but I’m too young and I want to be prepared when I meet him. I want to be the Juliet he has been dreaming of and hoping for. :))

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Speaking of love, kachat ko si Mr.Smiley kanina.

Haven't seen him in six days. Missing him already. haha.

Adik-adik lang. xD

Why?

1. Why did I dream of being wrong about my crush? Is that an omen? Marami na kasi akong mga dreams na nagkatotoo. Sana naman hindi ito kasama sa mga 'yon. :/

2. Why do I not know what course I want? Grabe. Passing na ng UPCAT forms, hindi ko pa alam ang ilalagay ko. Actually alam ko na first choice ko, hindi ko lang alam kung ano dapat ang pansalo. >.< Yung pansalo pa ang problema ehh. Basta alam ko, med ang kukunin ko. Ewan na.

3. Why do I miss YOU sooo much. Haha. LOLS.

4. Why am I so tamad to wake up na on school days. Dati naman kaya ko gumising ng 3-4 am. Ngayon, regular time na ay 5:30 to 6. Haay. Ang tamad ko na bumangon.

5. Bakit ang bigat ng combat boots? :o Nararamdaman ko lang ang ginhawa sa buhay kapag natanggal ko na ang mga sintas at eventually ang mga itim na medyas. Ay, lol, haha, nag-rhyme?

6. Bakit ang saya-saya ko these days? O talagang mababaw lang ang kaligayahan ko? Haha.

7. Why are people so full of pride? Why is hypocrisy in everyone's heart? Why is the majority always right? Why is the minority always belittled? Discrimination and Racism are losers. Ugh.

8. Why am I still up, asking these randomly stupid questions? o.o

Huh. Mornight. ~~